Im a moron. After spending all day Friday, a few hours on Saturday and about 13 hours on Monday and about 8 hours yesterday trying to fix a stupid banner ad bug on AOL Radio, I had a mini-epiphany this morning in the shower. I should just start living in the shower - thats where I have most of my epiphanies. Anyways - it all made sense in the end. The problem wasnt that hard after all - and I was able to fix this bug in 3 hours… and release it to production and save AOL millions of dollars. Again.

You might ask why I bust my ass so much for The Man. Why I care so much. Youre not the only one - on my way into work this morning (which by the way happens to be from my bed to my den that I call my home office this particular morning) I asked myself the same question. Of course I knew the answer - but I feel that I have to keep validating it in my mind. The answer is that Im quite the perfectionist in everything - and when things go wrong, especially with something that I created I cant deal with it until I fix it.

This is not limited to just work either. The problem wasnt the bug - it was me. I over analyise everything. I always take the most pesimistic road. The fact that I was simply over-engineering the solution and thus creating more problems with this particular problem sums up my life in recent months… When Im in a relationship and things take a tumble - I feel that I have to do something extra and fix it. I hate when things are not hunkie dorie. This tends to be quite a pain in the ass, as I found out the last couple of days.